Monday, 2 March 2015
Now I am sitting on my usual booth in my place (Bar, of course) all alone and depressed after I ran away from my douchebag friends just now. I call up Cindy, the another bartender at my place and order the stupidest request I ever asked, the most luxury and pain in the ass expansive 35 years old Famous Grouse and I drink it all by myself. I try to drown myself by getting drunk as a donkey that night but the pain is just too hard and it demands to be felt by me. As I am going to hit my third glass of my scotch, my three friends James, Ken and Andrew including the douchey Lenny. I say "Get the hell out of here!!" everyone in the bar startled in silence and the bar goes mute just like my laptop when I am trying to view some inappropriate videos back in my adolescence years.
James or Jimmy comes and put his arms around my shoulder, "Chill off Dan. You're gonna scare every single hottie in this bar if you keep on shouting like that. Come on bro, I want to hit on someone tonight and at least some of us would be happy. haha!" This Jimmy guy is really funny though, I can't help it but smiled and chuckled a little bit. Then Ken says "Dude, forget about that Amy chick already. Like seriously you're better off without her." "Yeah, man. I know how much you like older women, what about I set you up with my 31 years old sister. She has been single for too long and seriously, I really want a nephew or two. haha!" Said Andrew to cheer me up a little bit but I was offended a little bit. I loved Amy not because of she's older than me (even she is around a few days than me) but I loved her for what she is. Lenny still stood up in silence. I don't know maybe he needs my permission to sit the booth there. I said "Permission to come aboard accepted" and smile towards him although he was being a bit cheeky with his jokes during our 'board meeting'. Meaning getting drunk late at night at our work place and drinking on the rooftop of our office.
~To be continued
I will get up every morning and talk a walk in the middle of 4:00 a.m and see the Manhattan skyline while waiting for the dawn to come. Seriously, I can't really sleep at all because I am in pain and I can't sleep with a broken heart. I hit my jack and the bartender Joe greeted me and ask "What do you want for today?" "Just, one Famous Grouse. Neat!" ordering my favorite scotch while lighting up a stick of Red Marlboro that I bought last night. Damn, it was the last one I had and seriously I have to buy another pack before I head to work today.
"For God sake Daniel, stop smoking and get some sleep." Said Joe and he tries to take my lighter away from me after he done finished making my drink. I almost explode but I calm my nerves down as I said to him slowly "What should I do Joe? I loved her so much. She was my whole life and now, I lost my world."
Joe pat my back and sit next to me as my tears start kissing my cheeks and fall to the bar table. "Danny, you're gonna be okay... Don't worry about it. Amy isn't that hot. You have scored chicks ten times hotter than her. She's totally a strong 5 while you my man, you're a solid ten. haha!" His words tickle me a little bit there and we talk about crazy stuff until it was almost 7 a.m. After 4 drinks and 7 stick of ciggies I lit up thanks to Joe by the way, I go and prepared myself as I have feel better, I think. ~To be continued
The Six Degrees of Separation. What is it actually? Well no one knows. Haha! But all I understand about this six parted theory is it is the 6 step that human being would take after they stop being in whatever kind of relationships. Either it is love, friendship or anything. So, I will be talking about my own experiences related to this situation or theory which I always face before. This is my own Six Degrees of Separation.
I remember my own six degrees of separation just like it was yesterday, painful yet vivid. Yes, I still can feel the pain until now and no one ever known behind all of those smiles I thrown, deep inside the heart is beating in pain. I read books and articles about break ups and all. Watch the shows talking about giving my spirit a boost. I remember as I couldn't take it anymore I would go out of my house and sip a smoke until my chest hurts literally. Just to heal what is broken inside.
But every time, all of my friends and colleagues ask "Dude, I hope you're fine there." And I would carve the best fake smile I could, and say in my fake cheerful voice "I am totally fine bro." They used to go and put their arm on my shoulder and pat while uttering these words to me, "If you need me, just tell me okay? I will be your listening ears and shoulder for you to cry on". But inside I think, I am a guy and I don't wanna cry in front of them as it would make me look like a sissy and I tell my own self suck it up and I mean literally, it means freaking smoke there.
So, I think I am getting better as I can smoke whenever I want after I broke up with her so, I tell myself "Cheer up bro, no one will tell us what to do after this". What I didn't realize is the reason I started smoking is because of her so, basically without I am thinking of her subconsciously although I know I didn't really notice it. But actually I am not because I am entering the gateway of Six Torture Stage of Separation. ~To be continued
Monday, 12 January 2015
Saturday, 27 December 2014
Hi again folks... I am back after a few weeks not updating and such... 😄 so, what I have for you guys today is a English version lyrics of popular Korean drama's theme song which many call as Winter Sonata... But actually the real title of the song is "From The Beginning Until The End" and it was sung by a very talented artist Ryu (don't ask me for his fullname... It's not like I am his mother or anything... 😒) haha! So yeah, this song is already covered by Hazami as Sonata Musim Sejuk but today you guys can sing it in English too since no one ever made a cover in English for it... Haha! 😁 so, let's get started ...
This cover is dedicated for you... You guys whose reading this... Not for a special someone... 😳 haha!
From The Start Until The Very End
Since the day you have walked out of my life
My days and nights have been tearing apart
And the darkness casted upon the bright day sky
I washed away by the waves of love
And I drowned in the ocean of lies
But to reach the light that's all I ever wanted
It's like the day without the bright light of the sun
It's like the night without the sparkles of the stars
Without you here my life will not seemed right
'cause you are perfection of my life
It's like the spring without the beauty of the scene
It's like the summer without love that warms my heart
This heart and soul are binded and there's no turn back
From the start until the very end
Repeat # and Chorus
I pray to the Almighty
To build us a Palace in Eden
And our love will stand forever
And we're done there! Try it if you wanted... Or maybe sing it to your loved ones... It will work as charm I guess... Haha! 😉 thanks for reading! Toodles peeps!
Monday, 1 December 2014
Hi again fellow human...
For the second post, I think I would like to share a poem entitled Angel... This poem is written by myself where I imagine a situation of two married couple, how the the husband sees his wife and how much he appreciates his beloved angel of his whole life...
Seeing your face just like looking up with night sky
You're so beautiful and each time I do I feel I could die
As for me, I have gaze my eyes upon what they call heaven earth
You're the angel of my life and for me, you're always the first
I have seen thousand faces
And I have heard millions of voice
I have face so uncountable behaviours
But still for me yours is my favourite
The way that you smile amuse me
The way that you laugh warm me
The walk that you talk made me fall in love
You're the only one I wanted to be in this whole world
This eden that we build since the first brick
Complete this beautiful garden, and never I felt sick
Holding your hand and tied to the bond of God
Nothing else I heard but the singing bird...
Saturday, 29 November 2014
Hello fellow human...
This is my first time having a blog since before this I thought people with blogs are sissies (like my roommate. Hahaha!) But once I started it I feel like this thing is kinda cool. Well, actually I gotta be honest with you guys and myself, I am not really into this blogging thing cuz mostly what people do here is writing entries here on what they have been doing all days and write about there feelings or whatever. But then a thing about me, as INFP; I rarely express my feelings in a direct way or in another harsher and not-sugarcoated; superficial way. I bet not so many people know what INFP stands for (Cuz trust me... I have been there too. I was asking what is INFP when my non-biological brother first mentioned it to me...)
Apparently, INFP is actually a type of personality according to Myers-Briggs Type Indicators; as one of the available personality type in this whole world and INFPs are considered as the minority in this world since there are about 4-5% populations in this whole world. I would say I feel like an alien sometimes cuz nobody can really understand how INFPs think.
Fun facts about us... There are so many famous people whether they're actors, writers and singers... Most of INFPs are successful in arts as I mentioned before rather express our feelings on our canvas either it is on a real canvas for artists, music sheets for musicians , the silver sheets for the actors and blank white pages for authors... Some of the most famous INFP individuals are
1. Princess Diana of Wales (She was a self-diagnosed INFP)
2. Edgar Allen Poe
3. J.R.R Tolkien
4. Stephen King
5. John Mayer
Those are my favorite people in my whole life and I feel very lucky to have the same personality type as them... I also hope that one day, I can be just successful and influential as them... I guess that's all for this post...
Peace out people!